I don't think there is enough space on this blog for me to write about all the shitty things that have been happening lately. To me, my family, and my friends. Bah! I just want this year to be over. Or, the events that are happening to be over. I know that people have obviously been through much worse than what I'm going through, but it's still hard to not let it bring me down. And, on top of all of this, one of my best friends, Kelsey, isn't here. I miss her so much. Especially around this time of year. I received an email from her the other day writing about how much she missed me and how sad she was. UGH. Let's just say it was not easy to read.
Dear Kelsey, please come home soon? </3
But, Christmas is almost here, which is awesome. No matter what happens I will not let it get in the way of Christmas for myself. No way. Today I baked banana bread, pumpkin cookies, and cupcakes! Boo ya! My house smelled delicious. Plus it was snowing outside at the same time and I had our Christmas tree all lit up. I definitely did not want to go to work today. I would have loved to just put on my pj's and put in a Christmas movie. Maybe it's a Wonderful Life (My favorite) or The Santa Clause. Soon I will be able to do nothing but relax. Because....It's almost my winter holiday!! A whole glorious 8 days off of work. Don't get me wrong, I love love LOVE my job, but sometimes you just need a day or two...or eight to do...absolutely nothing.
Some other venting that I need to do...
Some people. Just....People. Why do ya gotta do the things you do? WHY!! People suck sometimes. Seriously. I just want to go live with my dog in the middle of nowhere, away from everyone.
I just hate feeling...like I annoy people. Ya, I think that's what it is. I'm very strongly opinionated and am very passionate about the things and people in my life. Sometimes I go overboard, and I can see how that might put some people off. But it's me, and if some people don't know that by now, well then I guess they can suck it haha.
For a little while there I was really worried about what people thought of me and the choices I made. I felt like I needed the approval from people to say that I did a good job or that I did something right. But who are they to say it's right or wrong. Screw you. You don't like it, YOU DO IT. Ya....bitch (god I miss Breaking Bad). Anyway, back to what I was saying. I used to care, but I had a realization today. I'm going to do the very best that I can with what I have. I'm happy and I'm proud of how far I've come. I'm sure I'll have some setbacks along the way and a few corrections. But that's how we learn right? I've made lots of mistakes, but if I never made those mistakes I would never have learned. I would have never learned I don't have to put up with guys that are wrong for me. That I don't need to cling to a guy just cause I have him. I can wait for the real thing. (Which has finally come around <3 ) I don't need to stay at a job that makes me miserable, I don't need to keep people in my life that I don't want there. The list goes on.
Well, that's it for this entry. Goodnight Mr.Blog. Thanks for listening.
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