Is it Friday yet?

The past couple weeks have been so busy! On the 3rd of December my dog sitting Tucker began, I can't believe it's over tomorrow already! As much as it's nice to get back to your own routine and not have to worry about another persons' dog, I will miss the guy! He got along with my dog Shadow SO well. Shadow and him played almost the entire time that they were together. I think Shadow might miss him when he's gone. Plus Tucker has been an absolute sweetheart. Which I didn't really expect to be honest. Let's just say that at the daycare he wasn't quite...the nicest guy. So I thought I may have had some issues bringing him into my house. But nope. He was an angel. No problems at all! I wish all my dog sitting could go as smoothly as this one had.

Along with Tucker I had all my Christmas shopping to do. Also running errands almost every day!
Friday will be the last day before our winter break. I am so excited for it! I need it. I need to have a few days where I do absolutely nothing.
Tina and I are planning to have our nails done this weekend along with a double date downtown on Sunday! I'm very excited, I hope it all goes great. Which I'm sure it will :)

AMC you did it again. *(Warning, Spoilers)*

So, Ryan and I finished Walking Dead last night......
Good lord I love that show so much. They did an awesome job at making you sit on the edge of your seat for their mid-season finale. It was almost too much to handle, but it was good. I've heard rumors that this season 4 might be their last.Which I would be sad about, but at the same time might be a good thing. When shows drag on for too long I find they can become way too repetitive and sometimes end up making me not want to watch it anymore. Almost losing interest. Like Breaking Bad for example. I miss that show and wish it didn't have to end, but where else could it have gone? Jesse and Walt get together AGAIN? Or Hank actually isn't dead and the game of cat and mouse starts AGAIN? No. Wouldn't have been good. They did an awesome job of wrapping it all up and giving it a wonderful ending to the series. I wonder how they're going to wrap Walking Dead up...

Memory Lane

Uh oh, Here comes sentimental Nicole again...
I was cleaning out my room tonight and found an old box full of old pictures. The majority of them were from about 2-3 years ago. Back when I also used to hangout with a bunch of different people.
It's crazy how fast time goes. When those people and memories used to cross my mind it felt like SO long ago. But looking through the pictures it felt like it was yesterday. I hardly talk to any of those people anymore. Some of them have moved away and some did the same as me. Fade out.
A lot of the pictures made me smile so big and even laugh out loud. I do miss those days from time to time. I love my life right now.
But getting to have these memories in the back of my mind are just fabulous. I have some awesome stories to tell for forever! And stories to make me smile. I am so happy I was given the chance with those people to do the things I did. We were all so young and free! We didn't care if we worked at 7 am the next morning. Most nights during the summer we had bonfires on the beach (after jumping the huge fences behind the giant houses out at White Rock of course) haha. Or getting pissed drunk and getting lost downtown. Scary and exciting all at the same time. Going mudding down at allouette, pulling all nighters and having burger king for breakfast (ew), waxing Colten's chest hair (yes, we did that), drunk bowling, driving all the way to Alberta just to see a friend for one night, having your bday party on a monday night and having all 28 of your friends show up, all the crazy wild houseboating (I will not post what happened during those trips on here, only close friends know about that haha),...I could keep going all night.
Now, I'm not saying that I don't have beyond fantastic memories with my other best friends. Because I do! So many of them. I don't know what I would do without these wonderful people that are in my life right now. I love them dearly, they are family to me. I am a lucky girl to have the friends in my life that I do today. It's just that reminiscing on these memories are very dear to me because during this time was when I broke away from the horrible person I was slowly becoming. These were the years when I realized who I want and don't want to be. And these people just happened to be a big part of that. I'll never forget them. Things may have changed, but the memories remain the same.


"It was my life and it was fun
Another season of my life is done
Another race I'm glad I got to run
Another chapter of my life its over
No I'm never gonna feel like that again
Times rushin by me like the wind
Never be as young as I was then
No I'm never gonna feel like that again."
-Kenny Chesney

 

Is it Saturday yet?

Yay! Tomorrow is Friday! Finally! One more week. Just ONE MORE week.
Plus, super exciting, this Saturday I am going shopping with my bestie! I know, I'm crazy to be dragging her with me on the 2nd weekend before Christmas. But either way, I'm excited to go! Shopping with my red head is always a good time. Then, after shopping, we will be doing our practice class for our puppy training. Well....Tina will be practicing, I, on the other hand are planning to just stand there and smile until I get the hang of it haha.
Later on in the day Ryan and I will FINALLY be going to get our Christmas tree together <3 I am so excited. We like to make a night of it. We get hot chocolate and drive around and look at Christmas lights and then watch a Christmas movie together. Hopefully it's not pouring rain like it was today :/ Oh well, either way we will make the best of it. We always do!

"This is a fact, Jack"

I almost forgot to mention...

Ryan and I are obsessed with DUCK DYNASTY. Yes, it's ridiculous. So ridiculous. So fake and scripted. But we are IN LOVE. <3 <3 <3
Phil is my favorite #happyhappyhappy < - - - - I.Am.So.Lame.

Excuse me while I vent...

I don't think there is enough space on this blog for me to write about all the shitty things that have been happening lately. To me, my family, and my friends. Bah! I just want this year to be over. Or, the events that are happening to be over. I know that people have obviously been through much worse than what I'm going through, but it's still hard to not let it bring me down. And, on top of all of this, one of my best friends, Kelsey, isn't here. I miss her so much. Especially around this time of year. I received an email from her the other day writing about how much she missed me and how sad she was. UGH. Let's just say it was not easy to read.
Dear Kelsey, please come home soon? </3
But, Christmas is almost here, which is awesome. No matter what happens I will not let it get in the way of Christmas for myself. No way. Today I baked banana bread, pumpkin cookies, and cupcakes! Boo ya! My house smelled delicious. Plus it was snowing outside at the same time and I had our Christmas tree all lit up. I definitely did not want to go to work today. I would have loved to just put on my pj's and put in a Christmas movie. Maybe it's a Wonderful Life (My favorite) or The Santa Clause. Soon I will be able to do nothing but relax. Because....It's almost my winter holiday!! A whole glorious 8 days off of work. Don't get me wrong, I love love LOVE my job, but sometimes you just need a day or two...or eight to do...absolutely nothing.

Some other venting that I need to do...
Some people. Just....People. Why do ya gotta do the things you do? WHY!! People suck sometimes. Seriously. I just want to go live with my dog in the middle of nowhere, away from everyone.
I just hate feeling...like I annoy people. Ya, I think that's what it is. I'm very strongly opinionated and am very passionate about the things and people in my life. Sometimes I go overboard, and I can see how that might put some people off. But it's me, and if some people don't know that by now, well then I guess they can suck it haha.
For a little while there I was really worried about what people thought of me and the choices I made. I felt like I needed the approval from people to say that I did a good job or that I did something right. But who are they to say it's right or wrong. Screw you. You don't like it, YOU DO IT. Ya....bitch (god I miss Breaking Bad). Anyway, back to what I was saying. I used to care, but I had a realization today. I'm going to do the very best that I can with what I have. I'm happy and I'm proud of how far I've come. I'm sure I'll have some setbacks along the way and a few corrections. But that's how we learn right? I've made lots of mistakes, but if I never made those mistakes I would never have learned. I would have never learned I don't have to put up with guys that are wrong for me. That I don't need to cling to a guy just cause I have him. I can wait for the real thing. (Which has finally come around <3 ) I don't need to stay at a job that makes me miserable, I don't need to keep people in my life that I don't want there. The list goes on.


Well, that's it for this entry. Goodnight Mr.Blog. Thanks for listening.

long time no blog

So apparently my last blog entry was on October 11th? Jeez, what have I been doing?

Hm, let's see. This past weekend was a very full one but lots of fun . Saturday morning my co-worker and I had a meeting with our boss. It went very well! The Caesars weren't too bad either ;) Then that afternoon my boyfriend and I went out for a drive to Aldor Acres. We had both never been there before so we were very excited. We ended up having a blast! There were so many fun things to do. They had a few fires burning as well which made the atmosphere so awesome. There was hot chocolate and apple cider and apple pies and homemade ice cream and even hot dogs. We definitely had ourselves some samples. There were two huge barns full of animals. Cows, horses, llamas, bunnies, pigs, piglets, donkeys, and tons of birds. I pet them all! And even got to hold a bunny and baby pig. I now want to own both haha. They also had a pen where there were goats and sheep wondering around and you could go in and hangout with them. The goats were a little annoying because if they thought you had food, they were all over you. My favourite was the sheep tho. She was so pretty and fluffy :) The farm also had hay rides, which we didn't do, seeing how the line was super long full of little children haha. Once we had our fill of warm drinks and animals, we wandered out to the pumpkin patch. We found a couple we liked and headed on home.

Later that day we got ready to head our old friend, Launa's, goodbye party at Fox and the Fiddle. It was super nice seeing some of the old people we used to work with. I definitely miss working with them. But I definitely don't miss the work. As the night wore on it ended up just being me, Ryan, and our friend Brandyn hanging out. Around 9:30pm we headed home. I was super sleepy and ended up passing out around 10:30. I'm such a party animal.

Sunday we had a pot luck dinner our friend Tina's house :) It was a lot of fun. We ate, laughed and watched Walking Dead. And again, I passed out super early after dinner haha.

Shut Up & Sing

So, I recently watched a documentary called Dixie Chicks: Shut up and Sing. I was never a huge fan of the Dixie Chicks but loved a couple of their songs. Including "Not Ready to Make Nice". What I didn't know was that the song was written as their come back song after that whole Bush criticism thing.
After watching the documentary I couldn't believe it. They were being threatened to be shot if they got up on stage and played their shows.  
During a show in London the lead singer had said : "Just so you know, we're on the good side with y'all. We do not want this war, this violence. And we're ashamed the president of the United States is from Texas."
Apparently that just sent people way over the edge. They ended up needing to cancel shows and tours because of it. Radio stations stopped playing their music because of hateful phone calls and threats. There were even some protesters who resorted to publicly trashing their CDs. The song, Not Ready To Make Nice, is a reflection of how they feel about making that statement. By saying they are "not ready to make nice" means they are not going to apologize for what they said even though it was potentially devastating to their careers. Learning the true meaning behind why they wrote the song and the powerful music video and lyrics, has made it that much more of an amazing song for me and changed my opinions of them. You should give it a listen :)



"I made my bed and I sleep like a baby
With no regrets and I don’t mind sayin’
It’s a sad sad story when a mother will teach her
Daughter that she ought to hate a perfect stranger
And how in the world can the words that I said
Send somebody so over the edge
That they’d write me a letter
Sayin’ that I better shut up and sing
Or my life will be over."

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pojL_35QlSI

Catching up.

Oh, hello there Monday.
So, for the past 2 weeks I've had this cough that just won' go away. It seemed to be getting better. But after my run through Tynehead this morning I had a horrible cough attack. So I decided to go the clinic before work. Turns out I have Bronchitis. Joy. Have to take these massive(Okay maybe not massive, but I'm a baby when it comes to taking pills) pills for a week. Oh well, at least it will hopefully be gone at the end of it all.

This weekend was pretty awesome. Saturday morning Christina and her bf Corey took me out for breakfast to Ricky's in Cloverdale. Eggs Benny, yes. Delicious.
After breaky Christina and I drove down to the states to do a little shopping. Didn't really find what I was looking for, but I did find a super cute bra from Victoria Secret and some awesome shoes for my boyfriend. It was a fun adventure with my bestie. We are planning to hit up the outlets in a few weeks. Yay!
Saturday night I had the Jason Aldean w/ Jake Owen and Thomas Rhett concert. I went with Coral and Jenelle. Holy crap. AMAZING show. Every single seat was full and the entire concert no one sat down. They did such an awesome job. Coral and Jenelle are fantastic ladies to go out with to. I had such a blast with them. We are planning to go out again soon. Should be interesting haha.
Sunday morning I felt hungover. I didn't really drink much. But I was up till 2am and being sick and all my body just did not like it. So my boyfriend and I hungout in bed and watched Lost and drank tea. In the afternoon we went for a drive in the rain down to Glenn Valley. Even in the rain it's a beautiful drive. Later that night we went over to Tina and Corey's house to watch the series finale of Breaking Bad. Tina had made a delicious dinner for us as well. After the show was over Ryan and I headed out pretty quick. I wasn't feeling all that hot.

And now I am currently sitting in the office at work. Writing this blog. Just wanting it to be 6:30 so I can go back over to Ryan's and relax. He says he got a lot of yummy stuff for dinner and we are going to watch Lost. Oh dear I love that show so much. I am taking tomorrow off. Doctor's orders. Apparently sleep helps with being sick. Who'd a thunk it?

Random

I've been sick lately. I have this horrible cough and neck pain that won't go away. It's been over a week. It's brutal. I just want to feel better. Fingers crossed that it won't last for much longer.

This weekend coming up should be fun ( as long as I don't still feel like i'm dying lol ) Tina and I are going to the states to shop on saturday morning ( and apparently her bf is buying us breakfast before we go! So cute!) and then later that night I have the Jason Aldean concert with two lovely ladies. Coral and Jenelle. I haven't seen them in forever but whenever i'm out with them I always end up having a great time. Then Sunday morning and afternoon I plan on staying in bed with my boyfriend and relaxing and watching Lost. I love him so much. I can't wait till we live together. I feel so lucky to have him in my life. And then, Sunday evening is the Breaking Bad series finale. Tina and I are planning to get all four of us together to have dinner and watch it together. It should be crazy! I'm super excited for it. Other than that, life is pretty good. Can't complain much. Trying to start really saving money for the future ( I know I just said I'm shopping this weekend, but I REALLY need new boots and runners haha ). I need some winter clothes as well, but that can wait I suppose. I just need to win the lottery. That will make life easier hey?
Ok, I'm going to go watch some Sex and the City and then go to sleep. Goodnight blogger world.

Finally

This day has to be remembered. I finally did it. I finally caught my first Salmon!
I drove to the river to meet Ryan after I was done shopping with Brittany yesterday. Got there at about 6:30. The beach was lined with people. Ryan told me that he had caught one so far and just before I got there, there was a HUGE school of fish that just passed by. He said there must have been thousands. People were fishing like crazy to try and catch them but none were biting! Bastards!
After about 5 minutes Ryan caught another! The guys from the next group over came over to check it out. They seemed very frustrated that Ryan had caught 2 and seemed to be the only guy catching them. Then, I got a bite! I tipped the end up and reeled like crazy. Took about a couple minutes to get up on shore, he fought like crazy. When I finally got him up on shore he came off the hook, my rod went flying into some trees and Ryan came running over to stop the fish from flopping back into the water. It was awesome. As Ryan was dealing with the fish, I could hear the men down the river talking; "Did that chick just catch a fish?!" "What the hell!" "We need to step this shit up" - I couldn't help but chuckle. All in all a great day. Going back again today! The pinks are only here for another couple weeks, then come Chum and Chinook. Exciting!

Song Lyrics

I can't help it. I love country music. Found this new song after the Zac Brown Band concert. It's so cute <3 In love with it right now.

" Sweet Annie
Can I stay with you a while
Cause this roads been putting miles on my heart,
Sweetheart I’ve been livin in a fantasy
But one day Lightning will strike
And my bark will lose it’s bite
Don’t’ give up on me
Sweet Annie

Come a little closer so I can show you
My heart still beats fast for you
All over, and over again "

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KN3wEzLp9do

Taking a moment..

I just want to take a moment to write down my thoughts today.
--I'm in love with my life right now.--
Just knowing that no matter how bad things have gotten or how bad they may get, I will always be okay.
I have an amazing guy in my life who I'm talking about the future with. Our children, our home, our adventures. I'm excited for it. I can't wait to see how it all plays out.
My family. I couldn't ask for a better one. They are amazing and have been through so much and have always been there for me. I love them. 
My job - yes, it's had its issues lately, but how lucky am I? I friggen hangout with dogs all day. I get paid to sit in a room full of dogs. Plus I know what I want to do for the rest of my life. AND, my future plans for my career include my best friend! How awesome is that?
I know I'm going to have a lot of bad days, but I also know I'm going to have a lot of good ones. Life is too short to let people and things stress you out to the point that your missing the big picture.
Halloween and Christmas are coming up. ( I wish Sparky were here for them ) But I'm so excited. I love this time of year. Bring on the big sweaters and hot chocolate and boots !

This Song

While cleaning the daycare this afternoon this song came on the radio. I haven't listened to it in awhile. But I got chills instantly and tears to my eyes! The powers that some music holds is incredible. Makes me think of so many things.

"I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

I hope you dance

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Livin' might mean takin' chances, but they're worth takin'
Lovin' might be a mistake, but it's worth makin'
Don't let some Hellbent heart leave you bitter
When you come close to sellin' out, reconsider
Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

I hope you dance
(Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along)
I hope you dance
(Tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder where those years have gone?)

I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance
& when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance"

oh the possibilities

I know I would probably never do this, but sometimes I get the urge the just say 'Fuck it' and go live in the middle of nowhere with my babe. I miss the mountains. Ya know? Just to be away from people and have nothing but beautiful nature surrounding you. Maybe one day...

ZeeBeeBee

So...last night I saw Zac Brown Band at the Pacific Collesium with my friend Teresa. It was their first time ever in Vancouver and oh my god they were amazing! I had been waiting forever to hear that they were coming here. I practically screamed the day I found out. My feet hurt from dancing so much and my throat hurts from screaming. Such a good time. I hope my voice recovers for the next two concerts I have coming up!

...

Makes ya wonder

Hmm....

A Brand New Day

As I'm sitting here in my boyfriend's apartment looking down at Glover Rd I can't help but think to myself, how the hell did things with work get so bad?
I have been feeling many things with my job lately that I have been keeping to myself and will not even tell to you Mr.Blog. But I finally spoke to my boss last night. I confronted him about many things that have been upsetting me. I feel better. He really is a great guy, you just need to get around the certain...qualties that make him him. lol. He understands my feelings and says he will help me in any way possible.
I've also come to realize that a lot of the problems for me that keep arising are my fault. Not necassarily saying that I'm the root behind these problems. But the way I handle things. I sometimes assume that people do certain things for certain reasons and I sometimes let other people's opinions alter mine. If that makes sense lol.
I've been feeling left in the dark with a lot of things at work. Like, my fullest potentional hasn't been seen. But that is nobody's fault but mine. I need to step it up. But before today it seemed so hard to even want to step things up when I'm never asked to do anything or just known as the girl with "the broken phone so why would I ask you first?" I am a great person. I know I can go above and beyond what is expected. I work hard. I love to learn. And I love my job, which makes learning so much easier. I can't help but let things and certain events make me feel unmotivated to try anything new. How can you be inspired when you are never thanked? What happened to 'Team'? Do some people even know what the word means? I don't think they do. Bah! I feel myself getting angry again. I think too much. It isn't good. Because what has happened. Has happened. It is what it is. I don't have a time machine to go back and change things.
I just hope things start looking up soon. Otherwise I may need to look the other way. For my own sanity.

Getting Better

It doesn't hurt to be home anymore.
We got Sparky's ashes back on Thursday and I thought I was going to be a wreck. But it actually felt nice in a way to be bringing him home. With the ashes they sent a card. It had a beautifully written story about Rainbow Ridge. For those of you who know what I'm talking about, then you know how sad this card was. The place at home that I still feel the biggest sting in my heart is my backyard. There are so many memories everywhere I turn. But I feel him there with me. My mom says she does to.
I'm getting my tattoo soon! His paw print on the back of my shoulder. I am very excited to finally have it done.
I miss him so much every day. Life is strange without him. My family moved into our house when I was 6 and we got Sparky when I was 7. My whole cloverdale life he had been a part of it. So it's strange to think he is no longer there waiting for me when I get home. But I know how at peace he is now. He is no longer hurting. I can't wait for the day when I will see my baby again.

feeling blah

I'm currently at work, it's Monday, it is 6:36am and no dogs yet. There are only 11 names on the board and I'm pretty sure only 9 or so will show. Ugh, this is no good! I need distraction. Distraction from letting my mind go to the place I'm trying to avoid. I probably shouldn't avoid it, but it's so difficult to think about. My dog, Sparky, hasn't been doing too well. He is 16 which is flippin awesome for a dog, especially a somewhat larger dog. We will probably be saying goodbye this week...and that's all I'm gonna say right now because I'm at work and don't want to start crying lol.
Since Saturday morning I've been feeling like crap. My throat hurts and my body aches and I'm SO exhausted. Physically and mentally. I think all the stress from 3 big things that are happening in my life and/or around it have been weighing on me. My boyfriend has his own thing going on, but of course I can't help but let it stress me out as well. Seeing him upset and going through what he's going through sucks. Then there is my problem. Which sucks ass. And then there is work stress. I know I don't need to let it stress me out. Especially after my huge entry on 'not letting things that are out of my control get to me'. But it involves 2 people who are very close to me and I care about them. Sucks to see them sad. Hopefully things work out for them soon.
Okay, 6:44am now and still no dogs. I should have brought coffee. I think I may fall asleep on the keyboard.
This past weekend nothing too interesting happened. Ryan and I went out for dinner with Corey and Tina Saturday night to Original Joes. So yummy. And I had a cesear, which was DELICIOUS. Ugh, I could go for one right now. Dammit.
After dinner we went back to their place where the boys played zombie video games. Those games always make me scared.
The next morning I woke up with the worst sore throat by far. I took an Advil ( which Ryan persisted I do ) and then went back to sleep. Woke up again around afternoon to find Ryan missing. Found out he went out for soup and drinks for me. What a good guy. When he got back we made lunch and watched Lost for the rest of the day. We finally finished season 1. It had 25 episodes. 25. And the season finale had a 3 part! Jeesh. I must say, it's an awesome show. It ain't too bad that there is this sexy character named Sawyer who pretty much has his shirt off or unbuttoned for the majority of it. And there are 5 more seasons to go :)

This weekend I have the Zac Brown Concert with my friend Teresa. Then the weekend after that I have The National concert with Ryan and THEN the weekend after that I have Jason Aldean with Coral and Jenelle. The other day I was thinking about how with everything going on I wish those concerts were happening next month. But THEN I thought about how it's probably a good thing. Going to concerts may be exactly what I need it. Because from what I remember, it's super easy to just get lost in them and escape reality for awhile.

Dream Dog.

Yup, It's gonna happen. I will own one. That day is getting closer. I. Can't. Wait.

It's been awhile.

Time flies by way too fast. Where did summer go? This coming Sunday it will be September already! At least it's a long weekend.
It's also been quite awhile since I've made a post in here. So, here are some random thoughts...

I can't help but think of that fact that very soon I will be living away from my home and with my amazing boyfriend, Ryan. I am very very excited about it all. Yet I can't help but feel tugs at my heart strings at the thought of leaving my family, home, and my doggies. - I.Am.Such.A.Baby. Haha. I know it will get easier as I go along and sooner or later I am going to be in love with the fact that I won't have to share one bathroom among four people. Yes, that will be so amazing.
Ryan and I have already started purchasing things for our new place. Even though we haven't found the place just yet, it's nice to be prepared. We are going to rent together for the first little while as we get prepared to find our perfect home :) As it stands now, I could buy a place of my own. (Thank you family) But since Ryan and I are still starting out, and I have no doubts in my mind, I still want to do things right. I want us to take our time and experience everything together before we jump the gun. I know of too many couples who have made that mistake. I want us to be as financially and mentally ready as we can be.

Life has been so much easier since I made the decision of keeping my nose out of things that are out of my control and not letting those things stress me out (as best I can). I mean, I do care about the people in my life and as much as I want to help, there is only so much I can do. I am one person. Jeesh. I am hear to listen. I am here to offer words of advice and comfort. But that's it. I'm sorry. Unless your a best friend of mine and your being messed with. Then the person that is messing with you better watch out. Just sayin..
Work has gotten easier to. I'm not too sure if I've mentioned that before or not. But my work place was becoming a very difficult place to be (apart from all the puppies). It was unbelievable where we all ended up. I found myself being a mediator and counselor. I found that trying to deliver help as well as pass on messages between people only ended up making things worse. The problem with not talking to people face to face is that sometimes things are misunderstood or get taken the wrong way and other people end up becoming the blame and issues arise that shouldn't have come up at all. I know all of us got caught up in being this person. And it sucked for everyone. There are only 4 of us! What the hell! - But, lately things have been feeling easier. I think we all realized how silly we had gotten and that there was no need to let things get to where they had. So, fingers crossed that it will be smooth sailing. - at least for a little while!

So, does anyone watch Pretty Little Liars ? Or Breaking Bad ? Well - I do. And yesterday I watched the summer finale of Pretty Little Liars and the newest episode of Breaking Bad. And all I can say is that it was way too much to take in one day. All the plot twists and crazy-ness. I couldn't handle it. One of the shows even made me jump off the couch and scream "WHY?!?!" - Thank goodness no one was around to see that. And now I have to wait 56 days. 56. Until pretty little liars comes out. At least I have a new episode of Breaking Bad next Sunday.

MOKA. I GET TO DOG SIT MOKA THIS WEEEKEND. My heart is so happy. I love her so much. She's still fighting the mange she had a little while ago, but she's looking SO much better. I hope I will be able to take her on walks and maybe a fishing trip or two. Because she loves it so much!

Well, I can't think of anything else to type up right now. Plus I'm at work. So I guess I should get back to that haha.

Chataway

This past weekend my boyfriend and I went on a camping trip to Chataway Lake near Merritt. I had never been there before but Ryan had a few years back. I am so happy we chose to go there. It was beautiful. We originally had campsite #6 booked, but when we got there the owner, Pete, told us we could choose whichever campsite we wanted since there was no one else booked. Awesome! We ended up choosing campsite 11. Right in front of the lake. And the whole weekend no one else showed so we had the entire strip of lake front all to ourselves! There were people staying in cabins but they were far away on the other side of the lake.

We went fishing quite a bit in Ryan's boat using his new motor. I caught a couple trout but they were too small to keep. Which is cool because I love letting them go back into the water. We went on a hike on Saturday around the entire lake. A beautiful walk, only took about 45 minutes.
We plan on going back again next year and making sure we get campsite 11 again. We're supposed to be going to Bolean Lake in a couple weeks. I hope it works out! I love camping so much and this trip made me realize how much I've missed it. Getting away from reality is really good from time to time. And this is for sure one of my favorite ways to do so.

It happens...

 So, a few blogs back I had a huge vent session about how shitty and frustrating and stressful life had gotten. Well...It kept on getting stressful. And that breaking point I talked about before? ... It didn't happen. What happened was quite the opposite. I realized that there is no use getting your panties in a knot ( is that the saying? haha ) over things you can't control. Don't get me wrong, things still stress me out, but I'm not going to let those things take me to that point anymore. What good does it do? You end up getting a headache and gaining weight cause stress sucks ass! Things have a strange way of working themselves out. Not saying that I'm going to sit on my ass and do nothing, but I'm not going to try and solve issues that I have no power over anymore. I am not super woman :)
This weekend I'm going camping with Ryan, I am so excited. So my exact plan from the time I get off of work today till Sunday evening is...

 Oh ya, another thing that helped me to realize how stupid it is to get stressed out over little things is? Some awesome song lyrics! Music seriously has some great power. 

"What about cookie day?"

Tonight was the last night that I'll get to skype with my friend Kelsey for NINE months! :( Oh boy, it's gonna be tough. It's only been two months of her being in Toronto and I miss her so much already.
Tonight for the skype date our friend Brittany came by. It was so nice to have the fam jam together again, even if one of us was talking through a computer screen.
But to hear that she's having so much fun and meeting so many people and experiencing all these news things is just so great to hear. She deserves it so much. She's put so much work into this and Disney is lucky to have her.
Buuut, I still wish she was here lol. Nine months is a long time.
During the skype date Kelsey asked ``what are you guys gonna do on cookie day`. I`m pretty sure that question broke me and Brittanys heart. This will be the 9th annual cookie day, and Kelsey will not be there for the first time 0_0
So, ya, what about cookie day! Do we still have it! Kelsey says yes, but it just won`t be the same.
I`m not really too sure why im blogging about this. But this is actually such a big issue for us! It`s gonna be weird. I guess we`ll just have to wait and see what happens.
On another note, it got me thinking about Christmas time. My favorite time! Plus this gloomy weather we had today didn`t really help it either haha. I love summer, but once Christmas time starts to roll around, I become the happiest person ever! Anywhoo, I guess it`s time for Pinterest and then bed time. Goodnight Blogger world.

New show

So Ryan and I have finished watching all the series we've been so into lately. Sons of Anarchy, Breaking Bad, Orange is the New Black...
And now were hungry for a new series! So we started watching a Netflix original 'Hemlock Grove'. I don't really know what to say about it just yet. It's very odd, but it gets you hooked. So we're going to keep giving it a shot. See how it goes. The first like, 10 minutes involves an awkward sex scene and a girl getting brutally murdered and having her guts getting torn out. Awesome right? Ya...haha.
I'll write a post a little later once i've watched a few more.

Country Music

Warning: I'm about to get sentimental...
Okay, so that last post was a very angry one. But it felt real nice to get that out of my head and put into words. Even on my little blog. Venting is good.
After I made that post I was still pretty heated. Till I heard a song come on the radio. 'I Think About You' by Colin Raye. Most people probably have never heard of this guy. That's okay. But it calmed me down instantly and brought a memory back.
A couple years ago when my Aunt passed away my uncle gave me some old videos of family birthdays and get togethers. I guess he couldn't bare to look at them anymore.
I think the videos ranged from when I was just a baby till I was about 12.
Wow. Those videos had me crying in about 10 seconds of watching them. Happy tears tho. Memories that I am SO GRATEFUL for being able to watch on my television. The majority of my family members on those videos have passed away. I miss them so much. Our family was always very close that way. Dinners every other weekend and if it was someones birthday, everyone would go all out. I hope that if I ever have kids I can make their childhood just as special and full of good memories.
Anyway, back to the music. In almost all those videos of me and my brothers birthdays or just backyard bbq's, there is country music playing in the background. All the good old songs that I still listen to today. The ones that take me back. I grew up on the stuff. So whenever I hear a country song from when I was younger. It makes me think of my family. And my Aunt especially. I miss her so much that it hurts. I wish she was here.
I still listen to country music today. The new stuff is awesome and I love it, but its the memories and the feelings that I get from listening to it that keeps me so attached. That and the pure awesomeness and sexy cowboys of course haha ;)
A lot of my friends love country music and a lot of my friends don't like country music. And a lot of the time I get pokes for listening to it or hear my friends make fun of it. And to each their own. I'm not going to hate someone for their own taste. I just take it with a grain of salt and laugh along most of the time because I'm so used it now. I know that country sometimes has its reputation of that twang and silly hill billies. But I'll never be turned away from it. And the people who read this will now know why. Why I love country music so much.

Warning...

Warning: Foul language and angry words ahead...
You ever feel like taking someone and shaking them while yelling "what the fuck is wrong with you???" or "Shut the fuck up!!!!"
No? Yes? Maybe?
Well, in any case, I've been feeling this way lately.
Just some things in my life have been stressing me out lately. I've never been this stressed out before. I feel like even when I try to solve an issue that has come up, I end up making things worse rather than better. Do I just keep my mouth shut and let things happen? No, of course not, I'm not that kind of person. I will always say whats on my mind because I'm not some scared little human who is a afraid of a little confrontation.
ARGH. I shouldn't let these things get to me so much. But I can't help it. PEOPLE ANNOY ME.
ESPECIALLY those people that you think you know, and say one thing to your face yet turn around and say something completely different to another? Ya...Those people and moments are AWESOME.
Oh, you know what else grinds my gears? ( Yes, I used that term, whatcha gonna do about it?)
When people continuously mention how awesome their life is and how great things are going for them. I mean, it's great that things are working our for you. Good on ya. Pat on the back. JUST SHUT UP. What do you want, a friggen medal?  In my opinion, I just think that your life actually SUCKS and the reason you constantly talk about all that shit is because you don't want people to know that things might be falling apart again.
Yikes...Clearly I feel a little strong about all this hey?
I just hope something good happens soon. Because my mind feels so overwhelmed. I feel like a ticking time bomb. And I feel sorry for the people around me because the next bad thing that comes up, I may just kill someone.

Summer, where did you go?

Ok, so I know summer isn't exactly over yet, but I feel like I am running out of time to do all the things I had planned to do! Time moves way too fast for my liking!
Ryan feels this way as well, so we got our butts in gear and started planning...August is going to be a very busy yet fun filled month!
We are going bike riding this week. Yay! I'm actually so excited. I miss bike riding a lot and really look forward to it. Ryan bought me a gift certificate to the Bike Shop near his place for my birthday. We are renting bikes and bringing a picnic lunch (his idea, so cute!) and spending the whole day riding and hanging out along the Fort to Fort Trail.
We also planned a camping trip to Chataway Lake near Merritt. I've never been but I've heard its a fantastic place. We were going to invite other friends but we decided it would be fun to have just the two of us.
We also have many other day trips planned like the Zoo, hiking the Chief in Squamish, teaching me how to fly fish, another camping trip to Bolean Lake with our friends Mark and Julie, and a boat ride in Sechelt, as well as many fishing trips we can fit in :)
We are hoping to have all these happen before the end of September. Fingers crossed!

Christina Lake

So, I just returned home after our vacation to Christina Lake. I really missed my family, it was so amazing to see them and spend time with them. And of course, spend time at the lake! I've missed swimming so much and there is something about that lake that makes me want to swim all day long. And I did! That and fish with my boyfriend. We did some shore fishing and trolling on his boat with his new motor I bought him for his birthday. It worked so well and we had so much fun! We even caught a beautiful Sunfish which Ryan said was the biggest he had ever seen. We let it go even tho some people say they are very tasty.
The weather while driving up wasn't what I was hoping for. It was still beautiful but mainly cloudy with some rain. But the whole time while at Christina Lake it was absolutely spectacular.
Oh yes, and the food...
I am usually one who likes to exaggerate but when it comes to talking about how much of an amazing cook my aunt is, it's the truth when I say she is the most amazing cook EVER. So ya, that was awesome.
We are already planning our trip for next summer, we plan on making it a week long this time. I cannot wait! There is something about that place that makes me feel so at home. Looking very much forward till next time!
 

Vacation

So, I'm already 3 blogs in and I feel hooked. Feels good to type this stuff out. Even if no one at all reads it.
Next week starts my 5 days off. I am so excited! Supposed to be going camping with some close friends but sadly I may not be able to go. Reason why? I'm dog sitting this lovely old golden retriever who has unfortunately got a bad case of mange. Her face has become so swollen and irritated that it doesn't even look like the same dog. I can actually feel my heart break every time I look at her. It is so painful to watch a dog you love so much go through something like this and there is nothing you can do. So I may just stay home with her this up coming weekend. If it was anyone else or any other dog I would generally be upset that my week off would be spent dog sitting or house sitting. But Moka has such high spirits and is still so happy and has become like family, that spending my week with her actually sounds pretty nice. It helps that my family and boyfriend love her so much as well. She even had a present under the tree at Christmas time!

TGIF

Friday. Thank god it's Friday. I'd rather it be Monday because I am SO done with house sitting and dog sitting at this house that I've been in since July 1. Also, I am very much looking forward to the long awaited talk I will be having with my boss when he finally gets back from his vacation. The things I need to speak to him about have been eating at me for the past several months. Will feel very good to get things sorted out. I've come to the conclusion that if you want something done right, you have to do it yourself. And that is exactly what my plan is. Because in this life, as much as you want to worry about other people, in the end, your the one that matters most. Your well-being and happiness.

hm..

Oh hey, so I know of a couple other friends who blog and say it feels pretty good to put your thoughts and feelings somewhere. So...let's try this. I'll probably completely forget about this whole thing sooner or later. But, let's see how long it lasts shall we? ...