Catching up.

Oh, hello there Monday.
So, for the past 2 weeks I've had this cough that just won' go away. It seemed to be getting better. But after my run through Tynehead this morning I had a horrible cough attack. So I decided to go the clinic before work. Turns out I have Bronchitis. Joy. Have to take these massive(Okay maybe not massive, but I'm a baby when it comes to taking pills) pills for a week. Oh well, at least it will hopefully be gone at the end of it all.

This weekend was pretty awesome. Saturday morning Christina and her bf Corey took me out for breakfast to Ricky's in Cloverdale. Eggs Benny, yes. Delicious.
After breaky Christina and I drove down to the states to do a little shopping. Didn't really find what I was looking for, but I did find a super cute bra from Victoria Secret and some awesome shoes for my boyfriend. It was a fun adventure with my bestie. We are planning to hit up the outlets in a few weeks. Yay!
Saturday night I had the Jason Aldean w/ Jake Owen and Thomas Rhett concert. I went with Coral and Jenelle. Holy crap. AMAZING show. Every single seat was full and the entire concert no one sat down. They did such an awesome job. Coral and Jenelle are fantastic ladies to go out with to. I had such a blast with them. We are planning to go out again soon. Should be interesting haha.
Sunday morning I felt hungover. I didn't really drink much. But I was up till 2am and being sick and all my body just did not like it. So my boyfriend and I hungout in bed and watched Lost and drank tea. In the afternoon we went for a drive in the rain down to Glenn Valley. Even in the rain it's a beautiful drive. Later that night we went over to Tina and Corey's house to watch the series finale of Breaking Bad. Tina had made a delicious dinner for us as well. After the show was over Ryan and I headed out pretty quick. I wasn't feeling all that hot.

And now I am currently sitting in the office at work. Writing this blog. Just wanting it to be 6:30 so I can go back over to Ryan's and relax. He says he got a lot of yummy stuff for dinner and we are going to watch Lost. Oh dear I love that show so much. I am taking tomorrow off. Doctor's orders. Apparently sleep helps with being sick. Who'd a thunk it?

Random

I've been sick lately. I have this horrible cough and neck pain that won't go away. It's been over a week. It's brutal. I just want to feel better. Fingers crossed that it won't last for much longer.

This weekend coming up should be fun ( as long as I don't still feel like i'm dying lol ) Tina and I are going to the states to shop on saturday morning ( and apparently her bf is buying us breakfast before we go! So cute!) and then later that night I have the Jason Aldean concert with two lovely ladies. Coral and Jenelle. I haven't seen them in forever but whenever i'm out with them I always end up having a great time. Then Sunday morning and afternoon I plan on staying in bed with my boyfriend and relaxing and watching Lost. I love him so much. I can't wait till we live together. I feel so lucky to have him in my life. And then, Sunday evening is the Breaking Bad series finale. Tina and I are planning to get all four of us together to have dinner and watch it together. It should be crazy! I'm super excited for it. Other than that, life is pretty good. Can't complain much. Trying to start really saving money for the future ( I know I just said I'm shopping this weekend, but I REALLY need new boots and runners haha ). I need some winter clothes as well, but that can wait I suppose. I just need to win the lottery. That will make life easier hey?
Ok, I'm going to go watch some Sex and the City and then go to sleep. Goodnight blogger world.

Finally

This day has to be remembered. I finally did it. I finally caught my first Salmon!
I drove to the river to meet Ryan after I was done shopping with Brittany yesterday. Got there at about 6:30. The beach was lined with people. Ryan told me that he had caught one so far and just before I got there, there was a HUGE school of fish that just passed by. He said there must have been thousands. People were fishing like crazy to try and catch them but none were biting! Bastards!
After about 5 minutes Ryan caught another! The guys from the next group over came over to check it out. They seemed very frustrated that Ryan had caught 2 and seemed to be the only guy catching them. Then, I got a bite! I tipped the end up and reeled like crazy. Took about a couple minutes to get up on shore, he fought like crazy. When I finally got him up on shore he came off the hook, my rod went flying into some trees and Ryan came running over to stop the fish from flopping back into the water. It was awesome. As Ryan was dealing with the fish, I could hear the men down the river talking; "Did that chick just catch a fish?!" "What the hell!" "We need to step this shit up" - I couldn't help but chuckle. All in all a great day. Going back again today! The pinks are only here for another couple weeks, then come Chum and Chinook. Exciting!

Song Lyrics

I can't help it. I love country music. Found this new song after the Zac Brown Band concert. It's so cute <3 In love with it right now.

" Sweet Annie
Can I stay with you a while
Cause this roads been putting miles on my heart,
Sweetheart I’ve been livin in a fantasy
But one day Lightning will strike
And my bark will lose it’s bite
Don’t’ give up on me
Sweet Annie

Come a little closer so I can show you
My heart still beats fast for you
All over, and over again "

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KN3wEzLp9do

Taking a moment..

I just want to take a moment to write down my thoughts today.
--I'm in love with my life right now.--
Just knowing that no matter how bad things have gotten or how bad they may get, I will always be okay.
I have an amazing guy in my life who I'm talking about the future with. Our children, our home, our adventures. I'm excited for it. I can't wait to see how it all plays out.
My family. I couldn't ask for a better one. They are amazing and have been through so much and have always been there for me. I love them. 
My job - yes, it's had its issues lately, but how lucky am I? I friggen hangout with dogs all day. I get paid to sit in a room full of dogs. Plus I know what I want to do for the rest of my life. AND, my future plans for my career include my best friend! How awesome is that?
I know I'm going to have a lot of bad days, but I also know I'm going to have a lot of good ones. Life is too short to let people and things stress you out to the point that your missing the big picture.
Halloween and Christmas are coming up. ( I wish Sparky were here for them ) But I'm so excited. I love this time of year. Bring on the big sweaters and hot chocolate and boots !

This Song

While cleaning the daycare this afternoon this song came on the radio. I haven't listened to it in awhile. But I got chills instantly and tears to my eyes! The powers that some music holds is incredible. Makes me think of so many things.

"I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

I hope you dance

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Livin' might mean takin' chances, but they're worth takin'
Lovin' might be a mistake, but it's worth makin'
Don't let some Hellbent heart leave you bitter
When you come close to sellin' out, reconsider
Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

I hope you dance
(Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along)
I hope you dance
(Tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder where those years have gone?)

I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance
& when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance"

oh the possibilities

I know I would probably never do this, but sometimes I get the urge the just say 'Fuck it' and go live in the middle of nowhere with my babe. I miss the mountains. Ya know? Just to be away from people and have nothing but beautiful nature surrounding you. Maybe one day...

ZeeBeeBee

So...last night I saw Zac Brown Band at the Pacific Collesium with my friend Teresa. It was their first time ever in Vancouver and oh my god they were amazing! I had been waiting forever to hear that they were coming here. I practically screamed the day I found out. My feet hurt from dancing so much and my throat hurts from screaming. Such a good time. I hope my voice recovers for the next two concerts I have coming up!

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Makes ya wonder

Hmm....

A Brand New Day

As I'm sitting here in my boyfriend's apartment looking down at Glover Rd I can't help but think to myself, how the hell did things with work get so bad?
I have been feeling many things with my job lately that I have been keeping to myself and will not even tell to you Mr.Blog. But I finally spoke to my boss last night. I confronted him about many things that have been upsetting me. I feel better. He really is a great guy, you just need to get around the certain...qualties that make him him. lol. He understands my feelings and says he will help me in any way possible.
I've also come to realize that a lot of the problems for me that keep arising are my fault. Not necassarily saying that I'm the root behind these problems. But the way I handle things. I sometimes assume that people do certain things for certain reasons and I sometimes let other people's opinions alter mine. If that makes sense lol.
I've been feeling left in the dark with a lot of things at work. Like, my fullest potentional hasn't been seen. But that is nobody's fault but mine. I need to step it up. But before today it seemed so hard to even want to step things up when I'm never asked to do anything or just known as the girl with "the broken phone so why would I ask you first?" I am a great person. I know I can go above and beyond what is expected. I work hard. I love to learn. And I love my job, which makes learning so much easier. I can't help but let things and certain events make me feel unmotivated to try anything new. How can you be inspired when you are never thanked? What happened to 'Team'? Do some people even know what the word means? I don't think they do. Bah! I feel myself getting angry again. I think too much. It isn't good. Because what has happened. Has happened. It is what it is. I don't have a time machine to go back and change things.
I just hope things start looking up soon. Otherwise I may need to look the other way. For my own sanity.

Getting Better

It doesn't hurt to be home anymore.
We got Sparky's ashes back on Thursday and I thought I was going to be a wreck. But it actually felt nice in a way to be bringing him home. With the ashes they sent a card. It had a beautifully written story about Rainbow Ridge. For those of you who know what I'm talking about, then you know how sad this card was. The place at home that I still feel the biggest sting in my heart is my backyard. There are so many memories everywhere I turn. But I feel him there with me. My mom says she does to.
I'm getting my tattoo soon! His paw print on the back of my shoulder. I am very excited to finally have it done.
I miss him so much every day. Life is strange without him. My family moved into our house when I was 6 and we got Sparky when I was 7. My whole cloverdale life he had been a part of it. So it's strange to think he is no longer there waiting for me when I get home. But I know how at peace he is now. He is no longer hurting. I can't wait for the day when I will see my baby again.

feeling blah

I'm currently at work, it's Monday, it is 6:36am and no dogs yet. There are only 11 names on the board and I'm pretty sure only 9 or so will show. Ugh, this is no good! I need distraction. Distraction from letting my mind go to the place I'm trying to avoid. I probably shouldn't avoid it, but it's so difficult to think about. My dog, Sparky, hasn't been doing too well. He is 16 which is flippin awesome for a dog, especially a somewhat larger dog. We will probably be saying goodbye this week...and that's all I'm gonna say right now because I'm at work and don't want to start crying lol.
Since Saturday morning I've been feeling like crap. My throat hurts and my body aches and I'm SO exhausted. Physically and mentally. I think all the stress from 3 big things that are happening in my life and/or around it have been weighing on me. My boyfriend has his own thing going on, but of course I can't help but let it stress me out as well. Seeing him upset and going through what he's going through sucks. Then there is my problem. Which sucks ass. And then there is work stress. I know I don't need to let it stress me out. Especially after my huge entry on 'not letting things that are out of my control get to me'. But it involves 2 people who are very close to me and I care about them. Sucks to see them sad. Hopefully things work out for them soon.
Okay, 6:44am now and still no dogs. I should have brought coffee. I think I may fall asleep on the keyboard.
This past weekend nothing too interesting happened. Ryan and I went out for dinner with Corey and Tina Saturday night to Original Joes. So yummy. And I had a cesear, which was DELICIOUS. Ugh, I could go for one right now. Dammit.
After dinner we went back to their place where the boys played zombie video games. Those games always make me scared.
The next morning I woke up with the worst sore throat by far. I took an Advil ( which Ryan persisted I do ) and then went back to sleep. Woke up again around afternoon to find Ryan missing. Found out he went out for soup and drinks for me. What a good guy. When he got back we made lunch and watched Lost for the rest of the day. We finally finished season 1. It had 25 episodes. 25. And the season finale had a 3 part! Jeesh. I must say, it's an awesome show. It ain't too bad that there is this sexy character named Sawyer who pretty much has his shirt off or unbuttoned for the majority of it. And there are 5 more seasons to go :)

This weekend I have the Zac Brown Concert with my friend Teresa. Then the weekend after that I have The National concert with Ryan and THEN the weekend after that I have Jason Aldean with Coral and Jenelle. The other day I was thinking about how with everything going on I wish those concerts were happening next month. But THEN I thought about how it's probably a good thing. Going to concerts may be exactly what I need it. Because from what I remember, it's super easy to just get lost in them and escape reality for awhile.