As I'm sitting here in my boyfriend's apartment looking down at Glover Rd I can't help but think to myself, how the hell did things with work get so bad?
I have been feeling many things with my job lately that I have been keeping to myself and will not even tell to you Mr.Blog. But I finally spoke to my boss last night. I confronted him about many things that have been upsetting me. I feel better. He really is a great guy, you just need to get around the certain...qualties that make him him. lol. He understands my feelings and says he will help me in any way possible.
I've also come to realize that a lot of the problems for me that keep arising are my fault. Not necassarily saying that I'm the root behind these problems. But the way I handle things. I sometimes assume that people do certain things for certain reasons and I sometimes let other people's opinions alter mine. If that makes sense lol.
I've been feeling left in the dark with a lot of things at work. Like, my fullest potentional hasn't been seen. But that is nobody's fault but mine. I need to step it up. But before today it seemed so hard to even want to step things up when I'm never asked to do anything or just known as the girl with "the broken phone so why would I ask you first?" I am a great person. I know I can go above and beyond what is expected. I work hard. I love to learn. And I love my job, which makes learning so much easier. I can't help but let things and certain events make me feel unmotivated to try anything new. How can you be inspired when you are never thanked? What happened to 'Team'? Do some people even know what the word means? I don't think they do. Bah! I feel myself getting angry again. I think too much. It isn't good. Because what has happened. Has happened. It is what it is. I don't have a time machine to go back and change things.
I just hope things start looking up soon. Otherwise I may need to look the other way. For my own sanity.
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