feeling blah

I'm currently at work, it's Monday, it is 6:36am and no dogs yet. There are only 11 names on the board and I'm pretty sure only 9 or so will show. Ugh, this is no good! I need distraction. Distraction from letting my mind go to the place I'm trying to avoid. I probably shouldn't avoid it, but it's so difficult to think about. My dog, Sparky, hasn't been doing too well. He is 16 which is flippin awesome for a dog, especially a somewhat larger dog. We will probably be saying goodbye this week...and that's all I'm gonna say right now because I'm at work and don't want to start crying lol.
Since Saturday morning I've been feeling like crap. My throat hurts and my body aches and I'm SO exhausted. Physically and mentally. I think all the stress from 3 big things that are happening in my life and/or around it have been weighing on me. My boyfriend has his own thing going on, but of course I can't help but let it stress me out as well. Seeing him upset and going through what he's going through sucks. Then there is my problem. Which sucks ass. And then there is work stress. I know I don't need to let it stress me out. Especially after my huge entry on 'not letting things that are out of my control get to me'. But it involves 2 people who are very close to me and I care about them. Sucks to see them sad. Hopefully things work out for them soon.
Okay, 6:44am now and still no dogs. I should have brought coffee. I think I may fall asleep on the keyboard.
This past weekend nothing too interesting happened. Ryan and I went out for dinner with Corey and Tina Saturday night to Original Joes. So yummy. And I had a cesear, which was DELICIOUS. Ugh, I could go for one right now. Dammit.
After dinner we went back to their place where the boys played zombie video games. Those games always make me scared.
The next morning I woke up with the worst sore throat by far. I took an Advil ( which Ryan persisted I do ) and then went back to sleep. Woke up again around afternoon to find Ryan missing. Found out he went out for soup and drinks for me. What a good guy. When he got back we made lunch and watched Lost for the rest of the day. We finally finished season 1. It had 25 episodes. 25. And the season finale had a 3 part! Jeesh. I must say, it's an awesome show. It ain't too bad that there is this sexy character named Sawyer who pretty much has his shirt off or unbuttoned for the majority of it. And there are 5 more seasons to go :)

This weekend I have the Zac Brown Concert with my friend Teresa. Then the weekend after that I have The National concert with Ryan and THEN the weekend after that I have Jason Aldean with Coral and Jenelle. The other day I was thinking about how with everything going on I wish those concerts were happening next month. But THEN I thought about how it's probably a good thing. Going to concerts may be exactly what I need it. Because from what I remember, it's super easy to just get lost in them and escape reality for awhile.